Last week was a week of firsts for me.
First Snow Patrol Concert.
First time getting scammed.
First time ever mowing the lawn.
First time feeling ashamed of being a girlie girl.
OK. So let me just say, that Snow Patrol is completely amazing. And they are for sure my favorite band ever. They were just as spectacular live as I expected them to be, and I got to enjoy them with my bestest friend, K!! We both took a half day of work on Thursday and drove out to Boston. I was so giddy I could barely control myself.
And on the way there, I double and triple checked to make sure that I had my tickets. We got into the theater and seated and everything was fine. And I think at one point, I mentioned to her something about wondering why there aren’t more scammers out there. I mean, come on people, I know how the world works. Anyone who can get something for nothing usually will at least try. So these tickets that I purchased for the concert, I got on StubHub, which a friend of mine recommended. I bought the tickets back in like February. But the tickets explicitly say on them “don’t worry if there’s someone elses name” since you’re basically buying them from a third-party. But at one point, I asked K “How many times do you think people double sell their tickets?”
For some reason, questions like that never end well for me. I don’t typically believe in jinxes, but for some reason, it seems like any time I have a thought like that… it’s exactly what happens. “Wow, you know it’s been forever since I’ve seen a cop on this road” and then the sirens are wailing in your rear view mirror. (which happened to me several years ago). Like I said, I don’t typically believe in jinxes, but I’m officially making a point of never saying things like this out loud anymore.
Which brings us to the second ‘first’ for me. Being scammed. So… Ed Sheeran, the guy opening for Snow Patrol (who by the way…. is also PHENOMINAL) had just finished and an usher came over with some people to show them to their seats. There was a couple sitting a few seats down from us, and basically what happened was, the man looked at their tickets and said “Oh, you’re supposed to be down there” so he looked at our tickets… and don’t you know… we had the same tickets. Turns out, the seller sold them to ME on StubHub, and also sold them to this couple through eBay.
Can I even explain to you how upset I was? I mean, SNOW PATROL was about to be live in front of my face, and these people were telling me that we had double tickets.
Okay. So, I forced myself to stay calm. Apparently the other guy had purchased his tickets first- so they got to stay in the seats. The gentleman in charge was very nice and ended up moving us to some handicap seats that were closer to the stage. I was closer to the stage. They weren’t kicking me out for not actually having a valid ticket. I wasn’t about to complain.
The concert was completely amazing. I couldn’t hear for like an hour afterwards, and I didn’t get home until almost 3 in the morning (and still had to be at work at 8 the next day) but seriously, I wouldn’t have traded it for the world. They’ve been my favorite band for as long as I can remember.
I think it’s because of the ballads. I love ballads. And the lyrics. They have such smart, witty lyrics that you don’t even realize half the time.
I tried to tell you before I left
But I was screaming under my breath
You are the only thing that makes sense
Just ignore all this present tense
It’s sad and witty at the same time. I don’t know maybe I’m just crazy.
But my absolute favorite favorite song by them is Run. And it was so amazing hearing him explain why he wrote it. Back when they were poor and struggling. It’s a song about always being there for the people that you love. It is so my favorite.
Ok. So no more gushing, ok? OK.
Let’s talk about the girlie girl thing. Because it’s really something I’ve been struggling with for a while now. Not so much the fact that I’m a girlie girl…. more so the fact that I so often don’t feel like I am self-sufficient enough.
A couple of weeks ago- actually it was April 1 because I accused my dad of playing a prank on me. Anyway- I came home to find this MASSIVE centipede in my bathroom. It was high up on the wall, and I was a total wuss about it. (And I was going to insert a picture…. but it completely grossed me out just to type it into google and hit images…. so no photo of the nasty bug that wanted to eat me.)
I called my dad, freaking out, asking if it was some sort of April Fools Day prank- because I REALLY don’t like bugs. He assured me, that no- it was definitely not a prank. And he did what any normal dad would do- he told me to kill it.
Now- I am by no means a bug smusher. I think it’s gross. If I didn’t get so creeped out by them, I’d probably just let them go on their merry way. Usually I’d much prefer to swipe them into the sink or toilet or bathtub and just drown them.
But this thing…. it was high up on the wall and I was pretty sure if I tried to go near it it was going to eat my hand off. Ok- maybe a slight overestimate as far as what it would actually do- but if there’s one thing that girlie girls are good at- it’s making things seem WAY scarier than they are.
Speaking of- I just watched an episode of How I Met Your Mother the other night that completely proves my point and kind of makes me worried all at the same time. But I’ll get to that.
So- my dad says “If you’re not going to kill it, then what are you going to do?” My great suggestion was to get the broom but my dad insisted that it would fall and scurry away somewhere and that a paper towel was the best method of making sure that you got it the first time.
And then, in the background, I hear my mom tell my dad to just come over and kill it for me. Now, it’s not like we live next door to each other. It’s probably a 6-9 minute drive depending on lights. And to my dad’s credit (He IS an amazing dad, after all) he came over and killed it. I stood guard and made sure the thing didn’t move while my dad drove over, and that night I had creepy dreams about things crawling all over me.
But I got to thinking- what would happen if another one came along and my dad wasn’t around? Well… 2:36 a.m. the night I got home from the concert, that’s exactly what happened. Another one of those gross things with a bazillion legs was hiding in my bathroom…. and I killed it….. (with a pair of scissors)
But listen- the truth of the matter is, all my life I’ve been squeamish and grossed out and scared by things. Rodents, insects… all those little gross things that boys find exciting. It was during this episode of How I Met Your Mother that I realized that I am afraid to be independent.
There’s one exchange in particular between Robin and Ted that brought me to this conclusion.
Robin: I don’t get it, the Ted that I went out with was attracted to the kind of woman who could use a steak knife without supervision.
Ted: For your information, Becky doesn’t like steak. She likes pasketi… spaghetti. And more importantly, she makes me feel needed.
Robin: Needed? She makes training wheels feel needed.
Ted: Hey, it’s nice to feel needed. And you know what, it’s not a feeling guys get when they’re with you.
Robin: When we were dating, I didn’t make you feel needed?
Ted: Come on, you always took charge of everything.
(Cut to a bunch of scenes where Robin interrupts Ted by saying “I got this”…. paying for pizza, pulling out a gun when it sounded like someone was trying to break into the apartment)
Robin: Did that really bother you?
Ted: Well yeah… it’s nice to be needed. Look, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you. (his phone beeps) It’s Becky…. Ohhh… she’s trapped in a revolving door.
Okay… so humorous? Yes. Realistic…. maybe it’s a little far-fetched. But here’s the point of that whole thing… I am afraid of NOT making someone feel needed.
Now, the episode goes on to show Robin asking Barney about whether or not she made HIM feel needed when THEY dated- to which he also said no. But he made a point of proving to her that it was a good thing. Because he always knew that she could take care of herself.
I guess I’m stuck somewhere in the in-between. I don’t want to ever to get to a point in my life where I make people feel like they’re not needed. I don’t think it’s ever good to be THAT self-sufficient. But at the same time, it’s a little silly that I made my dad drive all the way to my house just so he could kill a bug. Maybe I need to be a little more self-sufficient than that.
So, after this huge self sufficiency revelation, I decided that I was going to start doing more things for myself. And so, on Saturday, I mowed my lawn for the very first time. There’s a lot of land at my house, and I have both a riding mower and a push mower. And interestingly enough, on Saturday when I went to mow, I could NOT for the life of me, start the riding mower. The engine wouldn’t turn over or whatever. So, I mowed the massive lawn with the push mower. And geez, if I do that every Saturday, by the end of the summer I have a feeling I’ll be in MUCH better shape than I am now. That’s hard work, yo. Especially going uphill.
In conclusion- StubHub is investigating the guy who sold me my tickets and refunded my money 100%. Also- when I was getting the lawn mower out of the garage, I saw a mouse. And I didn’t run away screaming…. I think I’m making progress.